the defective way,

Murtads in Malaysia and Singapore

Irritatingly bothersome. Absurd. Illogical. Gagged up, preposterous and ludicrous. Try figuring that out. Uh, Feeling so agitated after going through the group's recent status updates. I know there's no point being aggregated over this ridiculous nuisance, ( it's not like my feelings are going to help in anything ) but it's just something I can't be silent about. UH, Grief stricken over this bunch of confused people.

I don't see how all these criticizing and mocking would help protect the rights of apostates or the freedom of religion. No doubt it's some good intention. But it's the wrong way. The wrong choice of words. The wrong train of thoughts. What's left is just plain hypocrisy. Disturbing. Intruding. Contradicting. ( If the church ever gets involved with groups like this)

Dear Janice,
Speak up, but NEVER mislead people.
Never bring up controversies if you yourself are carelessly being negligent. Never try to delude. Never try going two extremes.

Dear Daddy,
I AM CHO BUMMED OUT! CHO VERY BUMMED OUT! Forgive us for being such a bunch of hypocrites. Please give me a kick in the heart if I'll ever turn up to be one. Help me never to be boxed up and confused, never to react impulsively over a rush of emotions. Never to be judgemental, and never to follow my own confusing heart. I know this is never how you want us/ or whoever else to protect and love the ones you love. Expose the eyes and ears of our hearts to the truths that'll set us free from being chained up into pools of deceitful lies and to always have a clear conscience :)

Thank you for teaching me to always question my faith whenever I doubt something. ( also being there for me even when I doubt you! :) , providing solid answers, and ultimately satisfying my thirst for truths. Love you so much! :3


Shot in October, @ Grand Istana Rama.

1 Be willing to accept those who still have doubts about what believers can do. And don’t argue with them about their different ideas.
2 Some people believe they can eat any kind of food, but those who have doubts eat only vegetables.
3 Those who know they can eat any kind of food must not feel that they are better than those who eat only vegetables. And those who eat only vegetables must not decide that those who eat all foods are wrong. God has accepted them.
4 You cannot judge the servants of someone else. Their own master decides if they are doing right or wrong. And the Lord’s servants will be right, because the Lord is able to make them right.
5. Some people might believe that one day is more important than another. And others might believe that every day is the same. Everyone should be sure about their beliefs in their own mind. Romans 14.

It's a just vexed feeling, you know? A sick one.

Sleeping in for the day,

A picture of Seth Zachary's creamy little greenish
birthday cupcakes from Ninth of July! :)

Exactly 27 windows opened in one fourth of an hour.
Of music videos, photographs, photoblogs, inspiring scrap and sketch sites, skype and facebook. I must admit, it's years since I spent such a long time in my room alone. No wonder I woke up feeling productive. Just a second. Scratch that. No one ever wakes up first thing to productivity. You gotta earn it. In other words, you need to move UP and out of bed, start doing something and call your day productive.

Like I said on Facebook, pretty much locked myself up in my little roomie the whole morning, crafting my way outta piles of recyclables ( which reminds me, I must have caught a little claustrophobia while I was at that ) Let's just say that I wouldn't survive another minute being stuck in my room with so many colourful strands and pieces of paper, ribbons, punches, pencils, markers, stamps and what not, without doing anything. Gooey hands, butt aches, cramped legs and coloured fingers. They surely work well together alright.

*Takes deep breath and exhales*

Now that it's the late afternoon and the daylight's decreasing, I shall take some time off to go for a jog. Definitely never too late for jogs! Ah, Feels good to know that I've done what I've set out to accomplish for the day. Well .. At least I think so?

:)

Dear Dad,
I thank you for another day of living, moving, and breathing. T'was fun, indeed!
Time to open up those doors! ;)

School has just been all the more, exciting! :) Well, Other than the times you lay on the table and doze off to sleep. Let's pick those recyclable items up and get going, lady! :)

; Bali.

One island. Barely a small part of the world.
2.5 million precious lives.

You're the way out to a life complete with the abundance of love ; the answer to provision ; the end to the endless searching deep down in the hearts of many, especially in the midst of chaos and confusion when lives are at stake; the only one standing steadily when earthquakes hit the island ; the perfect painkiller for hearts that ache, and exactly the right person to turn to when hearts break.

Upholding Bali into your loving arms ; praying for breakthroughs to come to pass ; for waves of revival and transformation to sweep the island, as well as the country it belongs to :')

Social Inequalities.

That particular day, we were driving across to Tanah Lot ; dreadfully stopped at a traffic light junction, only to see a couple of little kids, at the age of 4-5, running across the streets, knocking on windows for money. This time it’s not just me, their clothes were all torned and they pretty much looked like they’ve no where to go to. Pa said their parents may be the one who gave out orders to do so. Either way it’s saddening to see things like that still happening in the world. and it’s even SAD that these things only strike you once or twice when you’re actually looking at it with your own eyes. I guess everyone needs a reminder or two that there are still those employed in lower tier jobs or otherwise possessing below-average incomes. Praying that in time, the destructive walls of social inequalities will be demolished once and forever, not just in terms of income and wealth, but also in terms of class, race, and religion.

Flying Back Home.

*pants* Good to finally be back home in Malaysia! Feels like forever. Guess I could say that Bali Island’s still very close to my heart ;) Well technically not just the island itself. I guess it’s more to the amazing people I met and the new faces I see.

This trip was more than one of those typical holiday trips you make just to chill over a week’s break or something. You could say that a ninety percent of everything I did/see/talk/hear about reminded me of at least one thing I should do/learn from. It’s as though every step I take, every image my little mind captures are shadows of even deeper realities and needs I should be looking into.

Dear Daddy, it was fun looking beyond the surface of Bali and not just what the island has to offer. Cheers to a whole new level of stretching my capacity to love beyond limitations through You! :)

Apart from the adventures you get to venture here, the unique faces of people and the story they each carry with them are the ones that excite me.

More to come.

So here’s my list of randomly awkward, less noticeable discoveries.

#1 Tissue here is so much smoother than the tissue paper you can find in Malaysia. I’m serious! And people here are just so generous with tissue. So much so that every toilet I enter there has to be someone offering tissue paper for free! Or “ Jgn lupa kertas tisu anda” : ) sheer generousity.

#2 I don’t know if it’s me but ants ( yes, I’m reffering to the little bugs crawling all around your food ) are way lazy here in Bali. I don’t exactly know why but you can leave food on the table and be gone for hours AND STILL, not have your food surrounded by these little insects. It’s either me or maybe the population of ants in the island decreased! Must be me.

#3 Mosquitoes are lazy here too. I haven’t got bitten by a mosquito in the island. Cool.

#4 On the other hand, MONKEYS ARE so CHO SMARTER HERE. They’re actually pretty much like what I’ve expected. Maybe a little more. They know how to get your moneh :/ Oh well. #animals and their high IQs.

#5 Oh and then there’s water. I don’t know how the system works here but I think I’d like to stick to Malaysia’s filtered tap water for now. Could say I’m pretty much not used to the salty tap water in Bali. Feels like I’m taking in salt every time I wash up. MY BODEH CANNOT TAKE IT YO. Heh!

#6 Speaking of which, You’ll most probably find only watermelons, papayas, and hrmm. I guess the most common ones are bananas and pineapples. They tend to miss out on apples and most citrus fruits. Sad I don’t get to have ‘em here.

#7 Which reminds me! :) Interestingly, welcome drinks are so common here. They're like signs of respect towards new comers/guest. welcome packs. Something YC never lacks!